This is the week in which I have to write about my butt in leggings, and also about female arousal products. Intriguing, right? You would think I’d be embarrassed, but I don’t embarrass easily. I think after living with four siblings and a mom who used to wear rainbow Converse and overalls to pick me up at school will do that to a girl. My mom used to wear rainbow Converse and overalls to school WHEN she was opening and re-parking my car after I had locked the keys in the car. With the engine running. While taking up three parking spots. I’m a class act sometimes, and other times, I’m a bigger buffoon than you.
This is also the last week I have before our longish Florida trip, so I will be checking in here and there, but mostly I’ll be facing my legit roller coaster phobia, and wearing a swimsuit in public. I think I just don’t care anymore. After the day or days I’ve had recently. After the weeks. There’s no point in doing anything but letting go. So what’s on my mind? I can answer that in a Currently post! I’m long overdue for one anyway. Next time you see me, it might be my butt. Or female arousal.
Reading: “After You” By Jojo Moyes. It’s the sequel to “Me Before You.” It’s due back in two days but I’m only a few chapters in. I’ve been told it’s not that great, but I’m certainly enjoying being in Louisa’s head again. It’s familiar and exciting.
Planning: Our vacation! It’s still evolving, even though it’s only five days away. It’s going to be something else entirely and you know I’ll be on Facebook, Instagram and eventually, the blog. We’re still figuring out which room or suite to stay in at our Disney resort. Then there’s what to eat, how to get Harry Potter wands, how to see the best fireworks, how tall the kids are and how many rides they can go on.. assuming they both want to go on rides. We don’t yet know if Des is more like me. Scarlet will go on anything. Then there are people to see within Florida, how many swimsuits to pack, if I can clear the DVR off before then, how to leave things with the cat, and.. and.. well that’s enough but there’s more, of course.
Stressing: I still stress about the things I stress about – bills, flights, when the next job is going to come in, roller coasters, my health, and many more things, but it’s different now. I’ve seen the alternative. I’ve seen a worst case scenario and what it could look like if all of this were to collapse, and the fear made everything else seem small. And there’s also a freedom there. It’s like I’m ready to start REALLY living the way I thought I was headed.. but I really wasn’t. Rock bottom. Sky high. Call it what you will. It’s all just things to be conquered. There’s such a higher, always. I could fly, if I really wanted. I do.
Wishing: For the health and happiness of my entire family, and that we continue to grow. Together.
Feeling: A little nervous, a lot excited, a little intimidated, a lot hopeful, a little congested, a lot still sleepy, a little overwhelmed, and a lot ambitious. I am feeling a big Monday morning – but it’s right before vacation – mix of feelings.
Listening: “Old Love” by Eric Clapton. I like the live versions.
Thinking: Of all I have to do this morning, before I can get in a long walk with Athena. Then of all I have to do this afternoon, before the kids come home. Then of all I have to do this week, before we take flight. In more ways than one, I hope.
Loving: Warm memories of the family weekend we had together. I didn’t work at all on Saturday. On Sunday I “only” had a morning photoshoot (adorable kids) and a blog post to write, but then I took the kids to the movies. I spent $34 on a terrible movie, only to have to carry three coats, two waters, two popcorns, M&Ms, cheese powder for Scarlet’s popcorn, and a rice krispie treat into the theater. Only for Des to yell “I have to poop!” several times in the theater, even though he didn’t. Only for Des to climb onto my lap and dig into my bladder for most of the movie. I’d do it again. Also a wonderful, wonderful Saturday and amazing snuggles with ALL members of the family. That includes the pets. I’m also loving organic frozen meals.
Wearing: A blue Fair Isle sweater that Scarlet picked out for me, and skinny jeans. Socks with cameras on them. Scarlet really wanted to pick out my clothes today, and I agreed, and she first jokingly picked out a willowy sundress. I said to Cassidy, “She’s really funny!” That is absolutely something I’d do to be funny. Wishing that I really could wear a sundress today.
Hoping: No one gets sick before Saturday! Well, Des is already sick. No one else! Hoping we can get everything packed and organized as a team. Hoping I can check everything off of my extremely long laundry list of things to do before our flight. Hoping for warm weather (there) and snowy weather (here) for all you snow lovers. Hoping for smooth days together and less irritation and more peanut butter cup ice cream. Hoping I won’t miss Athena and Penny too much. Hoping that new X-Files will give me the tingle it used to give me. Hoping that all of your many dreams come true. To you and you and you. And you!