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They Say in Heaven, Love Comes First

heaven in Cape Cod

We came, we saw, we conquered Cape Cod, and boy oh boy, you are not only going to get one photo and one story today.

Maybe just one story. There was a strange sense of urgency with our Cape trip this year – and I’m sure I’m not the only one who felt it was different. I needed a vacation more than ever, and while a beach trip with kids is more of that – a trip – than a vacation, I definitely could have used seven more days in Truro. I’m super terrible at letting go. Apparently I do it every year when we go to Florida for a week, with some tweaking and scheduling and half-working, and I almost took nine days off when we went to Alaska (really, almost) but I’m not sure it’s in the cards. I have major FOMO (fear of missing out) with work stuff. And the influencer landscape is changing, but I’m changing with it. And the Cape Cod landscape is changing too.

I’d like to think I’m changing with that too. All you can do is try. Try and try again.

Cape Cod

It was our first year with two dogs and we didn’t know until the last minute that we were bringing both. With my in-laws’ new house in Florida, and their house in Connecticut, I honestly didn’t/don’t know the fate of the Cape Cod house. I hope it’s always ours, or more likely – theirs. It’s not up to me, but boy, do I want this for them. More than I want most things.

Cape Cod

So there was that strange sense of urgency, and there was a weight I don’t always have. A heaviness. It wasn’t a hopeless heaviness, though, like a dark and suffocating presence. It was more of an irritating heft on my chest and around my throat – telling me that I was ok and still had all that good stuff inside of me – but sometimes the demons come out before dark.

I believe in a future filled with light and airy and cotton candy things – at least most of the time. It’s so hard to figure out right this second how to get there. Work is heavy and cumbersome and strange, at times, and so is my indecision about the direction I want this family to go in. I think that’s ok because I’m figuring it out now, and like they said, love comes first.

We’ve got a lot of that. That’s the beginning and the end, and it all blurs together, quite like the sea.

Cape Cod

We came back to the whirlwind of my birthday and house guests so I’m sneaking this post fairly late at night. I haven’t had the chance to upload my camera photos yet, and quite frankly, I still have ones to upload from last year and two years ago because I’m completely off my rocker with that. These are all my phone photos to share. My friend asked me why my phone photos don’t look like hers, and of course the #1 answer is that I study photography. This one (below) is edited for fun.

He was really looking out the window to watch Cassidy pump gas in a dingy gas station but I liked this better:

As for the rest of them, I hold my hands steady, use AE lock, and edit them in better apps than the ones in the iPhone. I love Snapseed, LensLight, and Bokeh Lens. All cost only a few dollars at most, and give photos more clarity and smoothness.

And you can reset horizon lines. All of it takes under a minute! (except for the gas station one..)

Cape Cod

Cape Cod

Cape Cod

This is me linking up, as one of my favorite things to do, with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week’s topic is Photo Share Friday And there’s still time to write yours. Come link up with your spin: HERE. What’s your photo? What’s its story?

Have you been to a beach lately?

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  1. Aw, glad you did get away. I am still very slowly getting back into the swing of things after Disney last week. Honestly was going to do a bit of a photo share for FTSF from it. But the week just got away from me. So, maybe soon on my own terms I will get those photos up. But until then, just taking it one day at a time to get myself back into the blogging swing of things.

  2. Beautiful pictures. The first one is so perfect and has Cape Cod written all over it. It looks like it could be a painting to be hung in a Cape Cod house. You should edit it to a painting 😉 Love the gas station edit. Where was that landscape?

    1. I actually turned it into a canvas, but not a painting! As for the edit, I can’t remember where it is in real life! Somewhere awesome, though. New Zealand?

  3. Looks like a fun trip! It’s always hard coming back, and you think you’re missing all this stuff at work, only come to find that absolutely NOTHING is different, haha!

  4. I have loved seeing all of your beach photos and your cute beach selfies! i know I find lots of peace when I am near the water. It is great that you have captured so many great memories from the trip!

  5. I feel happy for y’all that you got to go to the beach. It is my favorite of places. Thank you for the photo editing tip. I have precious little patience for studying photography and need all the tips I can get, but in small bites like this.

  6. I hope everyone had a vacation trip to remember.. Your splendid photography makes all of us wanting to jump right into each one of the beach photos and join the fun! The ones of the setting sun are so Heavenly!

  7. Gorgeous photos! Truly. I love the one you edited of your pup looking out the window. And the kids ones at sunset are so bright and colorful. How wonderful that you were able to bring both dogs (I’ve never been to Cape Cod but really want to go!).

  8. I haven’t made it to the beach this year, and I live so close! I let work and responsibilities keep me busy, but I hope to change that. If nothing else, I’ll spend the whole week by the beach in September when we go to Myrtle Beach for our family vacation. I can’t wait!!!!

    Your pictures are so gorgeous. I definitely need to download a good photo editing app. I have never been to Cape Cod, but you have solidified in my mind that I need to soon.

  9. I’ve never been to Cape Cod. Your photos make it look so inviting.
    I need to check out those apps and see if they are something I could use with the Mac.
    How clever of the place to offer a free piece of pizza for a bag of beach trash! I imagine the beach looks pretty clean in that area.

  10. Ah, I just LOVE the pics and everything is always JOY at the beach! I hope you were able to let go- enough to embrace those memory making days with your beautiful family, Tamara. I hope you grabbed that monster on your chest and flung it out to sea…

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