I can’t wait to trade eight boxes of 5,000 surveys for a check, but for now I’m still in the thick of it. I’m still keeping my head above water and trying to incorporate fun into my days – like breakfast at the diner or seeing Cinderella with Scarlet.
The gloomy weekend helped a lot because Cassidy was here being awesome, and the weather did not make me want to be outside at all. The only thing I hate about work is when it causes me to miss glorious opportunities to be out in the sunshine.
It would be so easy to skip a Sunday/Monday post, or to do something quick and easy, but what I missed the most and what I have been missing – is just writing. No html code or linkups or worrying about FDA-approved writing or disclaimers or disclosures, or whatever it is you’re supposed to do when you’re supposed to do something. I’m supposed to be doing data entry and photo editing and having pure fun and writing. Just writing. That doesn’t mean that prompts aren’t amazing. I am borrowing this “Taking Stock” prompt from Little Apple Tree and it seems a great way to take care of my business.
Making: I’m making a blog post! I’m making a non-anxious life that includes movies and breakfasts and musicals and dancing in the aisles. Can I say what Cassidy is making? Well he already made it, but it still counts. Corned beef and cabbage. YES.
Cooking: See above. It includes potatoes and carrots too. And insane flavor. What did I cook? Fried eggs this morning!
Drinking: I enjoy coffee, cranberry juice and occasionally chocolate milk, but what I drink mostly is water. So refreshing.
Reading: This is sad because I always have another lined up when I’m still in the middle of a book, because I’m obsessed with books. I just can’t right now with the data entry. On breaks I read great blogs. Next up: “Everything I Never Told You.”
Wanting: Next weekend, because this week might be tough. And warmth. I just want warmth and sun and stability and road trips and time to read books and hug more, and I want money and more sundresses and maybe a really great coffee drink.
Looking: At surveys and Excel spreadsheets. And out the window and at weather reports, and at Trivia Crack (find me there!) and downstairs at Scarlet at her table – folding and cutting and putting together pieces of paper to make great things.
Playing: Right now it’s “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” by Israel ‘IZ’ Kamakawiwo’ole on my Pandora. Never mind! That ended while I was still writing this answer. Now “Clouds” by A Firm Handshake has begun. I’m looking at you, Chris.
Deciding: What I want for dinner, and when. How to balance my workload tonight and for the rest of the week. Where to send Des to school next year! Another year of wonderful daycare? His first year of preschool? Decisions..
Wishing: For a money tree. For the dull ache in my temples to subside without me having to take anything. To get through these surveys at a fast and diligent rate, and to get paid and to go play in the sun, should it come out.
Enjoying: The feeling of cool peppermint oil on my temples. (looks like I won’t need a Motrin, after all). Watching Des jump on the couch, saying, “I just pooped. I want to take a bath.” His diaper is clean but he says it so that I’ll give him a bath.
Waiting: For the kids to go to bed so I can feel less badly about blog writing, photo editing, and data entering. In the grand scheme of things, I’m so obviously waiting for spring. It almost hurts. It’s feverish. It’s Spring Fever and it’s very real.
Liking: The TV shows I watch on my phone as background noise, when the shows I “really” watch are over. Shows like, “What Would You Do?” and “Fresh Off The Boat.” Better than I thought! I’m also liking the corned beef and cabbage for dinner.
Wondering: Who’s thinking about me..right…now? Am I going to waffle forever, or will I one day find consistent and enjoyable success? Am I just winging it? Am I on the brink of something great, or something completely terrible?
Loving: The hopeful time of year. The philosophical questions Scarlet asked me after Cinderella about if it’s still a happy ending with their parents gone, and if Ella’s forgiveness of Lady Tremaine made her a nicer person? (yes)
Pondering: What making constant fart jokes says about my character. What Des will look and be like as a young adult. What Scarlet will look and be like as a young adult. Will we all move to California eventually because of winter? (yes)
Considering: What to eat for dessert – cookies, ice cream or cookies? Getting Des out of bed for another hug.
Watching: The clock go by! I need to work. Also watching yet another episode of “What Would You Do?”
Hoping: That Capital Cities comes on Pandora next time I start it up. And that this week is anxiety-free.(ish)
Marveling: At asking Scarlet for advice and hearing the five-year-old wisdom totally and perfectly fit into my world. Also, Cassidy is gifted at making corned beef and cabbage, I dare say. Also, ice cream from Mt. Tom’s. Meet me there?
Needing: To do my work. To keep riding this wave of inspiration in my work, and realize that my work comes in many forms. That’s the way it has to be. If anyone asks, though, I’m totally a professional photographer, a blogger and a Mama.
Smelling: I’m still smelling the peppermint essential oil I rubbed on my temples! It soothes.
Wearing: A red and black long-sleeved dress, black leggings, and dolphin socks. (obviously)
Following: New people on Twitter on Instagram. My Facebook feed. Lots of you saw Cinderella too!
Knowing: That even though just one confrontation, argument, rejection, bad email, conflict, failure will set me back way more than it should set me back, somewhere inside I realize that I have to keep on keeping on. It’s what I have to do.
Feeling: Better, after the dull pain in my head went away. Hopeful, that this week will be more manageable than I think it will be. I’m fearing it a bit. It will not be easy, but maybe it will also be fantastic.
Admiring: I dunno – Cassidy’s hairline? Looks good from up here in my second story office. I’m admiring Dinah’s soft fur and how she woke me up this morning: “I woke up to a silent breath on my face. Opened my eyes and I was face to face with Dinah, who then pitter pattered across my stomach and ran to the bedroom door – checking to make sure I was awake and following. She then led me to the glass door where her sister was waiting to come in – after spending last night outside because she snuck out into the dark when I let Athena in. So Dinah is pretty much Lassie.”
Sorting Out: Is it a cop-out to say that I’m sorting out everything I wrote above? I feel like I said it all.