The bad. Some of you may have noticed that my blog was a little broken last week. Comments would time out, my beloved WordPress mobile app wasn’t working, and the the blog itself would only load when it saw fit to load. I had some panicked calls and emails to the two smart & lovely ladies who built my business website and logo, and the dear friend who built my blog.
The good. A few weeks ago, I participated in a #Blogging411 video show and it was only semi-embarrassing because during the little rehearsal, my co-hosts could hear Cassidy yell out, “What the hell is that?” During the show I got to talking with Randy, of iHelpers, and their motto is actually, “Let Us Do Your Tough Stuff,” which I learned a long time ago was the way to go. That’s why I hire people for a lot of my tough work – and by the way, I do ALL of my own photography and writing, in case you were wondering! I just mean the tech stuff. Nuh uh. I don’t do it. So I called upon Randy, because I remembered his wisdom. He set instantly to work for me that very day (Saturday), in diagnosing my problem (hosting), fixing it, and setting me up with new domain management and hosting. Yay! It’s probably going to be faster around here too. I’m very happy with these changes.
The bad. Between the broken blog, the broken business website too (same hosting issue) and a pileup of photography work (which is supposed to be good but just feels heart-pounding), I had a “gone” weekend. I have described those before. It’s when I’m inadvertently invisible, partly due to internal issues and partly due to external issues, which sounds a bit like what went wrong with my websites. Sometimes I feel like my family would be better off, or just fine, without me. I don’t think that’s a particularly uncommon fear of someone who has lost a parent at a young age. You see, that’s my normal. Or it was. So I can’t help but be forced to worry/wonder that it might happen to me too, and how would my kids be in that horrific situation?
The good. I woke up this morning to Scarlet and Des in my bed. Scarlet said to me, “I missed you so much this weekend when you didn’t go on adventures with us. You are a great Mama.” And also, I don’t plan on going anywhere, despite the random fears that probably many parents have. And also, I had a really great photo shoot this weekend with a wonderful famly.
That said, all of this is meant to test out my new blog, even if it doesn’t look new, and to introduce my #TuesdayTen post – What You Love and Hate About Back to School. I know I’m a day early here, but Rabia and Lisa have a good one this week, as usual.
1. The good. Fresh, new beginnings in the fall chill.
2. The bad. I have anxiety about fresh, new beginnings in the fall chill. Not always, but this year I do.
3. The bad. I really hate the end of summer. I hate when beach towns close down. I cry listening to “Boys of Summer.” I’m always bewildered that it has to end, year after year, and that we’re about to face another winter.
4. The good. Moose are better in the fall anyway.
5. The good. All new things. New clothes, new shoes, new backpack, new supplies. New information, new teachers, new classmates. And the way it can still make you feel like YOU’RE the one going back to school, even though you’re not.
6. The bad. See above.
7. The good. More time to do work and build my business!
8. The bad. More time to miss them..
9. The bad. I’ve never done this before.. so I don’t even recognize it as a good or bad thing – just as a scary thing.
10. The good. It may even be wonderful.