Why? It’s been in my head all week after seeing the entire school sing it for Scarlet’s school’s spring concert. I even have a shaky video. You can see Scarlet’s little face right next to the woman with the ponytail on the right in the front row.
I didn’t put on a cape to attend Scarlet’s spring concert, but sometimes it comes close. I DID put on a cape last week to visit the NICU, for the first time since Des spent time in one. It was nothing and everything like that one time. Did I tell you that my nephew Parker was born a week ago last Thursday? 4 pounds 7 ounces, 18 inches long, and a heck of a lot of hair. He decided to come early, because really, why miss all the goodness from the outside? There’s a lot of goodness on the outside.
And Parker Steven, middle name for my late great father – Steven Klein – seems to wear a cape too. In just a week, he has changed into a super hero. He can breathe on his own. He can suck a pacifier. He is learning to breastfeed. He is successfully winning the fight against jaundice. He sleeps and grows and his hair seems to grow too. He gets milk through his nose!
It’s not about me but it is about me because I’m about me and this blog is (mostly) about me. So I got the news that she was in labor and I cried and took to the dog trails with Athena. After burning 3,000 angry, sad calories, I waited by the phone. I got the news that he was born and ok and I cried of relief. I tossed and turned and waited for more news. I cried that my sister had become a NICU mom too. I wrung my hands and went to Target and the co-op, and stocked up on whatever I thought they’d need. My older sister and Parker, and my little sister and baby Myles James – born two weeks before Parker!
Then I put on my cape. I left the kids at home with a sick Cassidy and I drove alone to the hospital, took a deep breath, hugged my brother-in-law in the hospital, washed my hands, walked into baby Parker’s hospital room, and then fell in love.
Sometimes you DO put on your cape. To be the best sister, wife, mother, daughter, whatever, you can be. Sometimes I feel like Superwoman because.. I can do things that scare me a lot. I can grow, in and out of my own footprints. I can walk into situations that my head and heart are screaming “DANGER” about. Not because they really are dangerous, but because they trigger PTSD flashbacks, and only seem more scary than they are. And that’s ok. We don’t often get out of our lives without a little trauma. Without a little danger. That doesn’t mean you won’t rise again and tackle it head-on. Heart-on. Cape-on.
It’s a little funny that I chose today, a week after I literally put on a cape (came with my Supergirl shirt) to meet my nephew, that Finish the Sentence Friday’s topic would be, “Sometimes I feel like Superwoman because..” And then not only that, but I just finished reading the fabulous book Lose the Cape: Never Will I Ever. Weird, right? Cosmic Blogging Timing is the name.
Edited by Alexa Bigwarfe and Kerry Rivera, this is their second Lose the Cape book. As they say, we all have visions of what parenting will be like. I thought my kids would eat 100% organic and not watch TV until they were FIVE! Yeah, those things didn’t happen. Life happens instead. Reality takes over and we realize, not only do we know nothing about parenting in the long run, it’s because we don’t yet know anything about parenting our own children when they’re born. You learn as you go.
I loved Allison Barrett Carter’s story about the pink cupcake. Boy, have I been there. My kids ate all the vegetables and fruits in the world until they turned two, and then I did begin negotiating eating pizza for cupcake desserts!
I also loved April Grant’s story about having a “princess” for a daughter. I used to swear no daughter of mine would ever wear princess pajamas. Now? I can’t get enough of buying her princess pajamas, and princess everything.
Never Will I Ever is a collection of essays by mothers (and one brave dad!) who share their stories of how they evolved as parents and learned that when it comes to raising children, we can never say never.
It may not be what you think it will be. It may change, and that’s ok. This week’s timely Finish the Sentence Friday topic is “Sometimes I feel like Superwoman because…” and there’s still time to write yours. Come link up with your spin: HERE.