I feel so borderline today. I feel so borderline lately. I feel completely scraped out, but ready to start anew. I feel like I’m just under or just over the borderline in so many areas of my life. I just skate by on luck so often. I have great genes and great metabolism, but I don’t take great care of myself by drinking enough water, sleeping enough, or exercising. Like. At all. I also don’t always eat that well. I have great dreams and great generosity but when I do get money, I’m so shocked by its existence that I don’t throw it where I want to throw it. Not fast enough, anyway. I’m just under the borderline to be picked for certain blog agencies and anthologies. I’m just over the borderline for what I consider comfortable anxiety levels. I’m more than slightly pushed over the borderline. I’m totally worn out. I feel like garbage. I want to change every piece of my life, one by one. I want to push it all over the borderline. I’m not doing enough. I can tell you that. I’m not doing enough of the right stuff. Sometimes it’s just a big old mess. Clogged arteries over here, but not literally. There’s the luck and genes.
So with Madonna by my side, and with good love definitely on my list of things I need to work on, I’m going to do a part 3 of the questions from the New York Times article about how to fall in love with someone in 37 questions. Link HERE.
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Tiffany from Mrs. Tee Love Life Laughter,
Christy from Uplifting Families,
Stacey from This Momma’s Ramblings
Echo from The Mad Mommy
1. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people’s?
My family is very close and warm! There are a lot of “I love you’s” being thrown around on a multi-daily basis. Or do you mean the immediate family I grew up with? It’s sort of weird. In some ways, we all function and love as well as we can, but sometimes I feel like we don’t all truly know each other, or take the time. Maybe it’s fear-based. I don’t think my childhood was happier than other people’s, mainly because I suffered the worst thing a child can suffer at a young age (death of a parent), but I do think I was happier than other people. I’ve always felt extremely capable of joy, despite many hardships.
2. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?
I feel great about it! It’s gotten strange as we’ve gotten older because I always just thought of her as this magical fairy godmother. I was always safe with her, since my father passed. So when I left the nest (once for college and for REALS when I moved to California to be with Cassidy), I felt like a bird without a nest for a long time. As I’ve grown stronger and older, I’ve learned that she doesn’t always have all the answers to everything. She’s HUMAN. And that was tough to balance with my magical thinking. And sometimes we go a really long time without talking on the phone, and I miss so much pertinent info. She’s still one of the best people on earth and a true inspiration. I think of her whatever I do and whatever I want to do.
3. Complete this sentence: “I wish I had someone with whom I could share … “
The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth! Not that I lie, but my fears are bigger than I share. Often.
4. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.
Well I am hoping that’s more of a “when” or “it’s already happening” than an “if” but it would be important for him to know that I can fix every unhealthy thought, habit or quirk, but I’ll probably always be super-sensitive, emotional, and a worrier.
5. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you’ve just met.
Cassidy, I like nearly everything about you. You are so strong and kind and brave and patient – in so many ways I’m not, always, but that I want to be. You’re also a great cook and a wealth of knowledge on health and business and financial stuff that scare me. I don’t know many better parents than you are, and I love never knowing what kind of surprises are up your sleeve. It’s an interesting life – not knowing what you’ll come up with next, but knowing it will excite me and change my life.
6. Share with your partner an embarrassing moment in your life.
Oh, I have a good one! It was about ten jobs ago. I had ordered silly phallic things for a bachelorette party from a well known adult online store. Babeland, I think it was called. I had them delivered to work and I quickly stuffed the goods in my purse, but didn’t have the brains to stuff the invoice in there too. I decided to put the invoice in the office paper shredder but I didn’t do a very good job and the invoice was too thick, I guess! The next day my boss wordlessly handed me a non-shredded scrap of paper that said BABELAND. SHIPPED TO TAMARA BOWMAN. I’m usually rosy-checked but I went RED!
7. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself?
I cried precisely three times in the last week or so, in front of four people. I was handed a lot of tissues. By myself? I cry a bit when I write my heavier blog posts, so probably some silent tears within the last week at this desk.
8. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?
Intolerance and hatred. I don’t like any jokes that are man jokes or woman jokes or black jokes or Jewish jokes or gay jokes, etc. I don’t feel comfortable with them. I don’t ever joke about people with special needs either.
9. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?
I LOVE YOU. I don’t know why I haven’t told you.
10. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?
I hate questions like this very much, but it would be my computer. Sounds silly but there are a ton of uploaded photos in here that haven’t yet been edited and placed into my three forms of photo safekeeping. So shame on me there. That’s a huge risk!
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