And yet, I try. I try in person. I try on this blog. I try with loved ones and with strangers, and with my kids and with the store employee at Best Buy who sold me new RAM memory an hour ago. I’m a people pleaser. I have thin skin and I take criticism horribly. I fear rejection and confrontation to such an extent that I won’t even get very into watching sports, because.. I’m nearly too squeamish for all of it. It’s so hard to care so much sometimes. It can be easier to hide away. But why never try?
This is a controversy-free blog, and it probably always will be. Squeamish about confrontation, I’m also open and I like people to feel welcome here. I don’t talk about politics or religion, or lack thereof, but most people can sort of tell which ways I lean. I read well-informed conversations and views all the time. I read and I take them in and I think. Occasionally I might send a private message about something that concerns me, but that’s as far as it goes. With privacy and a delicate touch.
This blog started merely as a way to share my children with their relatives and friends. It grew to share my family life with more than just my loved ones. It grew into a way to showcase writing and photography, no matter what form that would take.
Last winter, I took on a pretty big data entry job in my town, and the income changed the way I live. It changed the way I thought. The dead of winter is a tough time for photography, and for me in general, and I began thinking about this blog more and how my writing could become a source of income, the way I always intended for it to be. I majored in Journalism with the sole intention to write my life away, and of course, make money. I realize that writing isn’t necessarily a moneymaking endeavor, but combined with photography, data entry, and odd jobs here and there, I thought it could help. Just the way it was when I was in college and taking assignments, there are a number of things to write about. I can be choosy, to a strong extent, but I’m not exactly expecting to spend my life getting paid to write solely about my brain. Does anyone?
I hope you always feel warm and welcomed here. I’ve had very little troubles here, if at all. Lately I’ve wanted to tell you that this blog will ALWAYS be full of writing from my heart. Even when it’s sponsored, I’m still writing about my family, my photography, our lives, and our happiness. And you know what? That was my original target. That was my original endgame. Researching products for my family – that make our lives easier and healthier – is an amazing thing. A surprising bonus.
So this is my one giant personal disclosure statement to tell you, that things here will never change dramatically. EVERY post is sponsored by love. I may change with the times. I used to write three heartfelt posts a WEEK. And then one day, personal blogging trended differently. I trended differently. My kids grew up and shed long naps and needed more of my time. I needed more of my time. Sometimes, changing times make you pause and look at your place in the blogging world.
I don’t always have the time to write like that these days, but there will be weeks in which I will. Maybe even MONTHS. There will also be weeks in which I’ve saved up three sponsored posts at the last minute because I’m all cool like that.
I have loved and supported so many blogging friends, and they have done the same for me. As you go on with blogging, have heart, empathy, and understanding about your fellow bloggers. There are factors that change what we do. Sometimes we change the way we write and post, because our page views, our incomes, our loved ones, & our inner voices are changing too.