It wasn’t around when I first went at age 4, and it wasn’t around when I second went at age 11. After that, it surely coincided with my phobia of spinning, or my lack of patience with waiting in lines. I remember waiting for Scarlet to go on it so I could take photos of her flying by. Her hair hadn’t been combed in DAYS and it was starting to get scary. She went to sleep wearing a candy necklace that then got stuck in her hair, and get this, Cassidy ate a piece of candy off it! I grimaced about it in line and a lady standing nearby cracked up. Obviously I have photos of what her hair looked like that day.
Last year I went on the ride because Scarlet’s best friend’s family convinced me and I didn’t mind waiting, if I was waiting with them. And Scarlet’s hair was combed and even with a terrible spinning equilibrium and a phobia of spinning, I’m ok on those kinds of circular rides with wide berths. They don’t actually do a thing to me. My inner ears don’t protest as we go round and round. Rather, I just flew. All I could do was get a photo to show my aunt because her daughter loved that ride. She passed away after a lifetime of smiling through cerebral palsy and that day, that ride, was a highlight of her short life.
Which brings me to Finish the Sentence Friday’s prompt: “In 2019, I want to…” It’s either a 10 things listicle or just plain writing prompt. I’m never one to shy away from a top ten list. And I don’t know that I’ll get to do all of these things, but I’m ready to put heart plans and heart minds and heart hands in motion. I do know that I’m happiest with the wind in my hair in front of me and behind me and beside me. I know that sometimes the demons creep up and it’s really hard to fight them.
I’d love to believe you can’t tell, but how could you not? My family can tell, and that is perhaps the worst. I know I’m happiest when I’m letting go and I know that I used to be more calm with a handful of stormy days, and then it got to be half-and-half, and now sometimes it’s more storm and less calm – which is this still and brightly colored boat in between the swells of storms – in that sweet spot staying afloat. Under that one beam of sun and over that one patch of calm waters.
Sometimes I’m sinking and sometimes sinking without suffering. Always thinking about how storms come back, and even more always thinking about the fact that sunshine always comes back. And I can sail and soar and fly, I can. I can take it in.
1 – I want to try a new roller coaster or maybe Splash Mountain or something else that soars. Just a few days from now..
2 – I’d love to actually go somewhere on a plane more than once this year. We always do the Orlando trip but nothing else! I haven’t been to California in 8 years! I haven’t been to Greece or Alaska for the Northern Lights or..so many places.
3 – I want to finally rent that cabin on Moosehead Lake in Maine. It’s always a big dream of mine but I never plan it because I’m not a good planner or leader and Cassidy never seems interested. But with one of his favorite bands playing in Maine this summer, I think we might all four be on board for days of moose safaris, whoopie pies, and Phish concerts.
4 – I want to get passports for the kids so that they can see Niagara Falls from all angles. And I might skip this year in telling Scarlet that she was conceived on the New York side of Niagara Falls. You know why, right? It’s boring there!
5 – Speaking of which, I want to see where my mom is from and she’s from Rochester so I think a trip to upstate NY and parts of Canada is in order. So much to see and do and eat in bakeries that have magical cookies. That’s what I want.
6 – I’d like to have a better work/life balance which I’ve already started to have, but it’s only because the busy seasons of blogging and photography have just ended. That said, the work is coming in now and it’s steady and perfect.
7 – I’d like to make regular coffee dates and lunch dates with local friends. And I’d like to meet new friends!
8 – I’d like to see old friends. I sort of got terrible about that with kids and work but I used to be much better about paying visits to my loved ones. Now it’s like I get too nervous or something. I miss you all, though!
9 – I want to eat all the foods and this really needs to be the year I get more consistently active, more hydrated, and more eating fruits and vegetables with every meal. I’d honestly be a superhero if I did all that, considering that I generally feel pretty great and I do none of the above. It’s like I’m on borrowed time, though, and it has to be running out.
10 – I want more little ones. Probably not a dog, and definitely not a cat. Nothing that belongs in the sky or the water, and nothing that poops pellets. Maybe more chickens. Maybe cousins, nieces and nephews? A goat? Just more littles.
This is me linking up, as one of my favorite things to do, with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week’s topic is “In 2019, I want to…” And there’s still time to write yours. Come link up with your spin on any of the matters: HERE.