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And So This is Christmas

And so this is Christmas. And so it appears I’m the only one writing this week.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

So be it, I say. I tried to take a break but I can’t really take a break from my brain.

And I wouldn’t want to anyway. This holiday season had some darkness and had some light, as they all do. There were moments of pure holiday spirit, like when I took the kids to the Look Park Santa’s Trains event and they got to see their friends sing. Then we took a holiday hayride out there in the bitter cold, and the wind took my breath away, but I saw so many kids looking at holiday lights in awe. Including my own! Very much still believers. Maybe they always will be.

Although it will change. That doesn’t make it any less amazing.

packing up the car for Christmas

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

I was never overtaken by the holiday spirit, but maybe I was happy enough to have the small moments that washed over me and stopped me in my tracks. The darkness I had this holiday season was maybe not the worst kind of darkness – the dense balls of doom and gloom that spiral bigger and darker. This was more like those balls of spikes and chaos that you can split apart to see the light – even before they’ve fully moved on. Maybe they’re still hovering but you see the tinsel and glitter and say, “I want that. I shall have that, but maybe not today.” It’s ok.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

There’s a spirit in me, and a drive, and that’s what I always wonder is the true magic and power. Is it in the spirit and the fire, the drive to do better, say it better, make it better, and then spread that blanket of love over onto others? And then if all of our spirits and our fires and our drives hang out together, what are the limits? Maybe there are none. So basically what I’m trying to say is that I had some darkness – as we all do – and it was more external than my normal darkness – but it played not so nicely with my internal darkness. It made me feel like I meant nothing and could do nothing, but it simply wasn’t true. And I know that and so do you. I hope!

And so, the darkest part of the year turns to light.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And you, you superhero. Muddling through heartache and family drama and eating too many cookies, and not enough vegetables. Connecticut traffic and a long December, and reason to believe that maybe this year will be better than the last. Working hard on not disappearing, and working hard on your bright colors and love and kindness. It’s a weird time of year, no doubt.

I’m lucky to be surrounded by the swirling colors and the love.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

I don’t forget, though, that I can be surrounded by people shouting “I LOVE YOU” right in my face, and still feel like I’m disappearing like a slow form of quicksand. Slow-sand, being swallowed by the earth. And it makes me think so much about checking in on my loved ones who have less neon signs than me. And it’s funny because it happens late at night, when I’m in and out of consciousness – half-finished text messages and emails – answered and replied and then sleep and then answers and replies. I wake up to them. They brighten my day. I’m a bit like a bear in hibernation, falling asleep to the three dots of response, and waking up to know we’re all just thinking about each other. Just hold your people in your heart even closer than ever.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And so, this is Christmas.

What can I say? We loved on the people we saw, and missed the ones we didn’t! Scarlet asked Santa for a red scooter, and Des asked Santa for a hammerhead stuffie. Those were different answers from what they asked Santa for in November, so they each got two gifts from Santa and a few from us. And gorgeous gifts from family. Turns out, Scarlet got a hot pick scooter.

Turns out, it was exactly what she wanted.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And most of the cousins played like the best friends they are.

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And we love the intersection of Hanukkah and Christmas! And some great Des side-eye:

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

My gifts were magnificent and thoughtful and probably need their own post.

And my mom made an amazing tablescape for us:

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And that was that. Take care of your people, people!

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

And So This is Christmas. I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week's topic is still: Holidays

I’m linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday (FTSF) for another fun and challenging prompt. This week’s topic is “The Holidays..” And there’s time to write yours. Link up your post HERE.

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14 Comments

  1. I love Des’s hammerhead stuffie!! And that Scarlet got her hot pink scooter! They look so happy ❤️ I hope you had the bestest Christmas and Hanukah crossover ever. Such a weird time of year, and I am sending extra hugs and kisses your way, my sweet friend. And yes. I think we’re the only two online during this time 🤣😊

    1. I had a scare where it showed up in my Amazon feed and Scarlet was looking over my shoulder and the Hammerhead was “from Santa”!! Eep! But it showed under “related to your search” so I think I’m ok. Whew.
      So many extra hugs and kisses your way too!!
      I loved being online with just you.

  2. You sweeten our home, our family, our lives… and not just with the Rosie’s cookies! Love you ❄️❤️❄️

  3. You are seriously awesome (much more awesome than me) as you are indeed still writing even now. Totally not writing although I did plan a bit ahead today. But nothing new for the next few days as I am still basking in all the holiday cheer here. Hugs and looked like a successful holiday to me 🙂

    1. haha, not more awesome than you! Just more sleepless because the words keep coming.
      I really will take some time off this week and then next week is disgusting again with busyness. I’m simultaneously happy/disgusted about it.

  4. Christmas and Hanukkah celebrations must be very special in so many ways as your family continues to grow. I love all of your pictures Tamara! Every holiday season including Thanksgiving of course can’t help but remind us of how much all the people in our lives mean to us. They are priceless gifts to love and cherish all year round, year after year. Happy New Year and Happy New Decade Everybody! To each one of you may l say, “Joy To Your World!”

  5. Scarlet’s pink scooter rocks! Love all the holiday photos and happy to hear you have added fun memories this Christmas. Thanks for sharing your holiday moments! XO

  6. We’ve just passed the shortest day of the year. Let’s hope we all get to experience a little more light.
    Best wishes to you and your lovlies!

  7. Merry Christmas and now Happy Hanukah! I loved your pictures ans stories.

    This Christmas was hard, but good. Being a mom and daughter has really torn me in two as I tried to honor both roles, but it was what it was.

    Happy New Year my friend!

    1. Like being the sandwich generation? That can be incredibly tough. This might have been before I “knew” you but I remember writing a post about my mom providing for four generations at once during my Nana’s 100th birthday party. She was providing for her mother, her brother who has Parkinson’s, her five kids who were visiting, and her grandkids who were visiting as well.
      It was.. insane.

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