Most things in life are two steps forward and one step back. Yet, sometimes you find yourself in dark and low places that you never thought you’d be in again. You said you’d never be in them again! And you might have even meant it. That doesn’t mean the dark covers don’t rise up again over your face, gently suffocating you and pulling you down. That said, once you find the light, I believe you find it even faster and brighter and better the next time around. So what I’m saying is – it’s ok to find yourself in places you swore you’d never be again. Dark places. Physical places. Mental spaces. Unsafe places & spaces.
Now today’s Finish the Sentence Friday prompt about listing 10 things we’ve done and can’t or won’t do again? It’s freaking fascinating. It took me a week to even come up with one, and then they all flowed out like lava. The thing is, we can’t control everything or even a good percentage of things, but we can control the things we’ve done that we can’t or won’t do again. I mean, at least most of them, right? So I made my list and I had to make sure it resonated through all the bones.
10 Things I Can’t or Won’t Ever Do Again:
1 – Eat Thai food. Why on earth am I starting with that one? It’s so unimportant in the grand scheme of the world but I got sick from it THREE times and didn’t learn the FIRST or SECOND times. Now I know! Three different restaurants too.
2 – Hurt someone’s feelings on purpose. As a kid with four siblings and my own trauma and feelings of worthlessness, there were times in which I was ok with teasing other people. It sickens me now, and I got plenty teased myself. It feels AWFUL.
3 – Go on a boat ride with someone who gets seasick easily. Just no! It’s ok if they wear the motion sickness patch, though.
4 – Live in New Jersey. Been there, done that.
5 – Live in a city. I did that once or twice but at this point, I think I might eventually become a hermit in Nowhere, Alaska who keeps a shotgun on the porch and throws rotten eggs at tourists and trespassers. Be honest – can you see me like that?
6 – Take on a work assignment that makes me feel yucky, no matter what it pays. Same with buying social followers. I bought Twitter followers once because I thought that was an ok thing to do, but they drained out within days. Embarrassing.
7 – Turn down a chance to snuggle with my kids whey they initiate it, and especially if I have nothing else going on! And same with Cassidy, with hugs and kisses too, although sometimes anxiety is an issue. They can understand that, though.
8 – Share or laugh or make jokes about women or men or races or sexual orientation or ANYTHING of the sort.
9 – Read “Where the Red Fern Grows” or “Babysitters Club 11: Kristy and the Snobs.” Never. Ever. Again.
10 – Fall in love. It’s not that I won’t, and it’s probably not that I can’t, but it took so long to get here, didn’t it? I’m staying.
Then I have honorable mentions and bonus nods to: Getting two cats at once, watching The Sixth Sense, and eating veal!
This is me linking up, as one of my favorite things to do, with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week’s topic is “10 things I’ve done that I can’t/won’t do again.” And there’s still time to write yours. Come link up with your spin: HERE.