No doubt, winter did a number on me this year.
There is STILL snow in our yard and on the sides of the driveway! Granted, there isn’t a lot and we were able to put up our swings over the weekend, which was entirely too happy-making for words. We live in a clearing in the woods, so as much as the house itself does get abundant light all year that many of you pointed out when I shared photos of my living room, the tall trees still cover a lot of our property. Our lawn still has snow long after it’s melted everywhere else in town. Everywhere else in MA?
This was taken last April. It was obviously somewhat warm for Scarlet to rock a Cinderella dress in comfort, but there’s snow!
Slowly, I’m coming out of my winter funk but it’s harder this year than before. I still dread getting out of the shower and I still curse at the pellet stove when I have to put it on in the early morning or late at night. As if it’s the pellet stove’s fault! I still have some frozen remnants in my head and heart. I still have anxiety over little things, like Scarlet’s dentist appointment, my haircut, business lunch meetings, jobs, preschool pickup? I kid you not. Sometimes I’m just so far gone that ANY kind of social interaction and/or chance at letting go, moving on, growing, expanding, whatever. It just makes me a little more jittery.
I may never know why. I know it comes and goes with physical seasons and life seasons. So much to think about. Money and travel. Kindergarten and a two-year-old. Blog conferences and real estate photography. Organic food and chemicals in the air. Illnesses and puppies. Fresh beginnings. Yesterday I woke up and had to take Scarlet to preschool, then relax at home with my mom, Des and Athena, then hit an appointment, and then get Scarlet from school. I had been up since 5:40. Why? Des thought it was a good idea, even if I didn’t. I find waking up before 8:00 am to be barbaric, but try telling that to the rest of them.
I was fuzzy. My phone was buzzing suspiciously at 8:30 am. From Vegas. (5:30 am there) And then something magical happened.
I called my sister, at the crack of dawn her time, to see what on earth was up. And…she’s engaged!! And he’s a real person with real feelings and a real smile and he makes her happy and he has a very sensitive side, and he once called me from the Disney Store to pick out a perfect gift for Scarlet. And not for nothing, but she was totally playing with the Flynn Rider doll he got her. She took the bridal dress off of Rapunzel and put it on Jasmine. She then took off Flynn’s shirt and asked me for help getting off his pants and boots. She said, “I want Jasmine to come home and find him naked as a funny surprise.” That really happened!
And what a surprise that would be…
So let’s get out these winter leftovers, shall we? Let’s move on and move forth. Let’s think about warm, fresh beginnings with no more frozen remnants hidden in our heads, hands and hearts. These are the last of my frozen thoughts and my winter photos.