This Is My Life.

I worked all weekend.

I always work all weekend, between mothering, twitter parties, and blogging and editing photos, but this was different. I worked for money all weekend. What a concept! My bank saw me three times on Friday. That’s probably more than they’d seen me in all of 2013. On Friday night, I photographed a beautiful book release party for The Good Mother Myth – more on that book soon. On Saturday and Sunday, I did data entry. Painstakingly. Alone at my computer, while Tom Petty blared from the iMac speakers, and Des and Scarlet blared out from the first floor of the house – which might as well have been another planet.

And now there are all sorts of questions. Where this data entry money will go. A car repair? A blog conference? New shoes? A new bed? And then there are the questions of photographing a book release party. It’s weird sometimes to be a photographer and a writer. Part of my heart lives behind the scenes – focusing on the best light and the best ways to represent these beautiful writers. Part of my heart lives on stage with them. Thinking. “I can do that. I can do this.” It’s like having two babies. It’s like when Des was in the hospital under jaundice lights and hooked to monitors, still days away from going home and due shortly for another feeding. Scarlet was home and crying for me to read her a story. And to not leave. “Don’t leave. Again. Don’t leave.”

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How can you learn to nurture all of the parts of your heart?

Especially when there are extreme circumstances and you do have to give what you have, where and when you can.

These are my deep thoughts as I photograph beautiful parties and diligently enter data into an Excel spreadsheet. I can’t ever just…do something. Not without the deep thoughts. The hows and whys. Why was I nervous before the shoot? Why do I hate flash photography so much? How can I learn to channel that into better flash, or more innovative ways to crank up the ISO and hope for the best. Why haven’t I written a book yet? Or two? Why must my nerves affect my personality? Why must I go home and rehash everything to Cassidy, forgetting until the end to tell him – how very, very right it was. It was all right. It was all so right.

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(This picture CRACKS me up because I really can’t stand flash, on-camera or off, but while I was setting off a series of shots to get the lighting right, he just grinned at me and this came out of it.)

I spent too much time telling him how my nerves get worse with age and how my face looks less radiant with a cold, and how I should have been more, done more, written more, marketed more, sneezed less, eaten more, doubted myself less, drank more.

And really, it was all so right. I am all right. The kids are all right. And I may never stop beating myself up for sneezing too much, and building myself up too little. Stressing too much. Chilling out too little. This is who I am. And this is my life.

In perfect photographic symmetry, I caught up on a lot of spare, unblogged photos this weekend, in between data entry, of course. And I think they do tell a story of my life right now, and for the last two or three months.

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This is, a horse on my parent’s farm!

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This is, a sister in love.

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This is, another sister in love – with her birthday-boy husband.

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This is, cute cousins.

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This is, my kids in costume on a random Saturday in November. The 11th doctor and Alice in Wonderland.

This is, my crazy husband on that same random day. It wasn’t so random. It was when “The Day of the Doctor” premiered. He’s the 10th doctor.

This is, how we do action shots. (More on that on Wednesday!)

This is, my family minus one. I’m always at least on the other side, though.

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And this is, two cute doctors.

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About Tamara

Tamara is a professional photographer at, a mama of two, a writer/blogger at and a nearly professional cookie taster. She has been known to be all four of those things at all hours of the day and night. She is a very proud contributor to the book, The Mother Of All Meltdowns. After two cross country moves, due to her intense Bi-Coastal Disorder, she lives with her husband, daughter and son in glorious western Massachusetts.


This Is My Life. — 144 Comments

  1. The teeny tiny doctor and little Alice….my heart just melts. Your children are beautiful. And you capture their hearts in your pictures. And the action shots are just plain awesome.

  2. Oh so precious!!! And yes yes YES!!! THIS is it. your here and now. Your in “it”. Life. Living. In this moment. And as much as I constantly go through the same process and end with the same results, we are richer for it, aren’t we?

    It’s a constant struggle and release… I know. I get you, remember? Oh, how I do sweet friend.

    Keep capturing it all- in your words and your photographs and your heart. Oh to live deeply. We wouldn’t have it any other way… we don’t KNOW any other way. XOXO

    • I do remember! You get me. I generally take time to myself to read your comments. And then I read them again!
      We don’t know any other way than to live deeply – you are right. And as my good friend Tammi says, “Don’t apologize for who you are. Ever.”

  3. Well, not that what I think matters, but, I like your life. I learn so much about it as you write about it and discover it through your photography. It’s fascinating watching you find the strength to get through some things and then there is the moments where you somehow share and capture the wonder of it all. It’s pretty extraordinary really. That white horse is like from a movie. πŸ™‚

    • Of course what you say matters! And I like my life a lot. I just don’t always love my reactions to it. Of course everyone would want to change things about themselves, and I’d love to change my anxiety. However, it’s who I am and managing it is icing on the cake.

  4. What lovely photos as per usual! Yes, I think we all struggle to release. I guilty of it myself. It’s like a have to stay busy! Just gotta keep cherishing the small moments and making new ones! Fortunately you’re able to capture them beautifully with your talent. πŸ˜‰

    • I get that – I panic when I’m not busy. I panic when I’m too busy. There’s only an occasional in-between, I find. I wonder how much of that is circumstance and how much I create myself!

  5. I love when your posts are absolutely FILLED with amazing photos. I’m in awe of how you can capture so much. I could look through these again and again. This day is going to be all right. Thanks Tamara!

  6. It was so lovely to see you at the book release party! Don’t forget, YOU are in a book! You’re a published author on amazon too!

    Things are going to happen for you my dear, you’re too driven for them not too!

    I love the pictures of the kids all dressed up, it was for a wedding right?

    I love the picture of your mom’s horse. That one needs to be printed and framed, asap!

    • So true! I’m a published author too. And if I wanted to speak on stage about it, I’m sure I could. I guess I just want more, more, more all of the time!
      The kids were dressed up just because Doctor Who came back after a long hiatus that day!

  7. I love how you can put things into focus in your life through your photos. It’s a true gift. And those pictures of Cassidy are awesome…you can tell he’s a dad that just has fun in the moment with the kids and that’s the best kind of dad to be!

    • Yes! He’s a wonderful dad. So there. So in love with the kids. And as he says, “I don’t just love them. I like them and I want to hang out with them.”

  8. You are amazing! I think in nature moms just spread ourselves into everything but we also want everything to be great…so it is such a delicate balance. These photos are wonderful and really capture the essence of your family. Sometimes we have to breathe through those worries and just do. I find as I have aged that I am more of a worrier but once the event is over I am fine…it is just leading up to the event. I just need to do it and not worry about it!

    • The amount of relief I feel after an insane. I wish I felt more calm in the hours/days leading up to an event.
      You’re amazing too! And you do understand about balance.

  9. Okay, I think your kids must have so much fun with that Daddy!! I have a daughter who thinks while doing everything – I tell her it is a sign of great intelligence and depth:) And Scarlet is the cutest little Alice I’ve ever seen… what amazing photos!

  10. Yes, you are certainly all right. Even though I don’t really know you, I know that you are a wonderful mother and I love how you are doing the things that you love and sharing that journey with us. Also, those action shots of Cassidy are absolutely fantastic! πŸ™‚

    • That means a lot – we’ve never met in person, but I do feel sometimes that I get a good sense about people, so if that’s what you see for me, it means I’m doing something right!
      Cassidy had a lot of fun with those action shots. I hope he likes the photos!

  11. You, my Sweet T, are amazing! Don’t forget that! As I’m struggling with some things myself, I will come through & as will you. I understand the anxiety, more than you know, YOU are STRONGER than you think! XOXO.

  12. As always, I LOVE your photos! Those action shots are great and I really, really love the ones of Cassidy holding Des. I think we moms put a ton of pressure on ourselves to do it all and do it all perfectly. You, my friend, are indeed ALL RIGHT!

    • You are ALL RIGHT too! I know you get it about wanting to write books, mother, and do everything! I am not very mellow with such things. I’m very hard on myself about this. I wish I could be less hard on myself, like how I’m not very hard on myself to cook/clean very well!

    • I used to do a lot of picture-filled posts. I’m talking 40-50 at a time. They’d take forever to load! This was nice to come back to doing it again, but a little less overwhelming. I love that these pictures sort of go together to tell a story.

  13. The building yourself up more? Next time you’re diving to an event and need this, call me and I will channel this for you. I will hammer it into your brain and your heart. That you’re fabulous and talented and worthy and that every thing you’re doing at any given moment is the right thing, with no questions asked. Only because I’ve done this for myself this year. I think that’s why I can do what I’m doing right now. The pep talks on the way to meetings with the town about building codes or with future suppliers or while driving to meet first dates. Telling myself I’m fabulous (and kind of believing it sometimes too). That’s the only thing that’s really changed.

    And you will write a book and get to everything else that you want to do. I struggle with this too. There’s so much I want to do but only have so much focus and time for what’s in front of me. But we’ll get to it all. I believe this.

    • The pep talks. I love them. They do help me. So much. That’s what I did last week when I was so nervous I thought I might be sick. And then I just walked in there and acted like I knew exactly what I was doing! (and I kinda did but I had never been there before so I had to grab my bearings).

  14. I always love when you share your photos here and those last ones of Cassidy and Des had me smiling ear to ear. Absolutely adorable and your guys are perfect together! And yay for extra money. I know sometimes I am working all day long, while I have the kids to tend to, as well, but I keep reminding myself the extra money does help to pay bills and such, so not a bad thing just have to slow down to enjoy certain things when I can. Happy Monday, Tamara πŸ™‚

    • It’s really overwhelming, however, the looks on their faces at Disney will be worth it, right? And just upgrading little things here and there helps my sanity so much.
      Photographing this family – it’s the best! For so many reasons.
      Happy Monday to you!!!

  15. You know what I get from this post?
    You have a fun family.
    You’re a family who has fun together.
    You’re a damn talented photographer and writer.
    Your children are gorgeous and surprisingly cooperative for photos (unlike mine).

    • You know, we are a fun family. We really do enjoy being together. Always.
      And thank you – from you, those compliments are sky high to me.
      Your kids are always gorgeous and at least look cooperative in photos!

  16. Your family pictures are just always so amazing! They just convey love and happiness, it’s like you can feel the emotions through the screen! I think looking at those would just lift my mood every time I saw them. That’s what I do when I’m feeling a crap load of life on my shoulders. I flip through pictures on my Iphone and it reminds me how lucky I am or I’ll see a funny picture and I’ll crack up. It’s hard juggling everything and we’re never going to be perfect at it!

    • That’s totally what I’m going for! And my family is happy. That’s why it can be challenging when I’m photographing a tense family or an unhappy family, or I’m tense or unhappy. I work better with this, ya know?

  17. Outside of the data entry it sounds like a great weekend. I love your pictures and love that you got to photograph the book party. Will we get to see pictures of that? Looking forward to it…and you should never be nervous to take pictures, you are amazing at it.

    • I will share some of those photos, I should think! Just have to get them to the editor first, and it may be after our Disney trip.
      And thank you. That means so much. I am just nervous in general sometimes, but, it gets easier with experience. At least a little. Although every experience feels new to me.

  18. It is all all right. I think our nerves are just reminding us that we’re doing something that we love. Honestly, I’d hate not to get those nerves because that means I’ve stopped doing what I’m passionate about.

    • I think you’re right. At least a tingle of something means I’m taking it seriously! Yes, I’ve had easy money gigs that made me less nervous. Like data entry. Certainly doesn’t make me nervous!

  19. Nothing to say other than I get it. I worked all weekend, too! Usually do but it’s okay because it means that the fact that the car repair place just called to say we had no brake pads in back didn’t matter πŸ™‚

    • hahaha..oh boy. I get that. I do hate when I complete a job only to be told news like that. On one hand, if I didn’t get the job, I wouldn’t be able to make the repairs. On the other hand, I wasn’t expecting it so I usually was planning on using that money for something more…fun.

  20. We do what we have to do to make our family safe and secure. I promise they won’t remember the rare times you were gone or busy.. and you do such a great job of making sure the times together are full of memories. Sounds like a win to me πŸ™‚

    • Sometimes I worry that they really do notice, but those of you with older kids say that the times that I am there are enough – filling in their memories with color and love.
      So yes, that is a win.
      And thank you!

  21. Tamara – I love so much about this post. This crazy Dr Who thing is so fascinating. You are so intensely talented. There a many books yet to be written by you, when you are ready. Women, mothers, and creative types all seem to be prone to anxiety. It’s like a triple whammy for you. I love how you keep it in perspective and work through with your writing and photography. Loved this!

    • Wow, Tara – that really made my day. (and today kinda sucks, otherwise)
      I feel that there are many books waiting to be written by me, but I don’t know what they are. And then there’s the photography. I always need to keep both loves in check.

  22. I need to do so much work on my books too….sigh…why don’t I work on them? Is it fear they will suck? I don’t know. Your photos, as always are GORGEOUS but now I’m confused. You don’t normally use a flash? How do you get their eyes so bright then? I hate when I take a photo and everybody’s eyes look black so I’ve been using a flash. Help. Also wha-hooo to working for real money! I vote Blog Conf.

    • I rarely use a flash because I hate it! The bright eyes are from positioning them so that their eyes are facing a light source. The sun is best, but lightbulbs work if need be. An open sky on a non sunny day is still bright. Or snow. Snow reflects light too. Wearing white. All sorts of fun things.

  23. Congrats on making the bucks Tamara! There will be days when we’re extra busy and hopefully that balances out when we’re not so. I always think about accountants or people who work in holiday retail who have to work insane hours for several weeks.

    • I have an accountant friend with twin girls and during the early part of the year, she misses so much of their lives. It always crushes her, but I imagine the other times make up for it. And it’s important enough for her in her career, so I definitely get that.

    • You know, it was more of a chance thing. I got it from a temp agency years ago when I was pregnant with Scarlet. He would keep calling them and asking for me to do it, and I’d do it. Eventually he started hiring me as a freelancer directly and skipping the agency fees. It’s been five years now and I love it.

  24. You totally have such a fun family. I always love looking at your pictures, everyone is just so AWESOME, for lack of a better word. I know, it sucks being BEHIND the camera…but hey…no one can take pictures better THAN YOU, right? πŸ™‚

    • haha, thanks! It’s hard for me to admit that, but of course I want them a certain way so there is no better person for the job than me, to complete my vision. However, I’d love another photographer to get me in there. I get photos taken of me by family members but they’re with phones or bad cameras..and honestly…ugh.

  25. Taking photos is something I hope I’d do great at. Gaahh I don’t even have a nice camera, lol! I honestly think that photography and writing are a great pair, it’s just like creating a photo essay. Love your photos as always! πŸ™‚

  26. Tamara, I love the sound and the looks of your life!!! Every time you share photos with us I’m in awe. The action shots are incredible but so are the still ones! And both of your sisters are so gorgeous – it’s obvious that y’all are sisters!!!
    Data entry?! That is something I would totally love – I’m a bit of an Excel nerd. When I worked I was always offering to make spreadsheets for other people!!!

    •’re the best. I’ll pass that to my sisters! They’d love to hear it.
      What’s really funny and I probably shouldn’t that to get this job, I had to pass an Excel test at home. I gave it to Cassidy to do and I got a 100! The temp agency started calling me “Excel Superstar” and when this job came up five years ago, they gave it to me.
      Granted, I have built a wonderful working relationship with the client and now I work directly for him..but…yeah…I cheated.

    • Thank you, Diana! I have had people meet them, who had only previously seen them through photos, and they said they felt like meeting them in person was like it wasn’t the first time. It was like they had known my kids for years!

  27. You have a pretty darn good life, Tamara, and it’s wonderful that you have the photos and the writing to remind you of that. And I hope some of that data entry money goes to a blogging conference – just wear the shoes you already have!

    • I do love my life, thank you! Sometimes I don’t love my reactions to it, but hey. Maybe it makes me a better writer/photographer? Or worse?
      And you got it. My shoes will suck, but I’ll be there.
      (actually the new shoes were for Cassidy but then he bought his own!)

  28. Okay, your husband looks like so much fun. I bet he’d appreciate the show Lost. My husband? Does not. I’m miffed. I wish I could get good shots of him but he’s all, “No.”

    Twitter parties! I’ve been to ONE. I’d love to do more but they always start when I’m dealing with the kids. And my husband has to wake up at 3AM so he’s in bed early or if he’s up, he’s out of it. Someday I’ll get to do more. Someday.

    • Did I ever tell you about our LOST themed wedding? And our son? Named Desmond!? Yeah. From LOST.
      The #sitssharefest on Saturday is mostly the only one I do. It’s too challenging if the kids are around and my husband isn’t, though. I won’t even attempt it then.

  29. your family is so beautiful Tamara πŸ™‚ As someone who, like you, will worry for the rest of her life almost constantly – it’s exhausting but it’s still a pretty good life πŸ™‚ Your daughter looks just like you in that Alice Photo – just beautiful! πŸ™‚ You all look like such fun! Have a great one Tamara! -Iva

    • Thanks! It’s so nice to hear that she looks like me. We really do have a lot of fun. That much, is totally true. No family is perfect, but we really do have fun.

  30. Girl, the hows, why’s and reactions to your life come because you are being your authentic self. You are an amazing photographer…I WISH you could take our family photos. I love the action pics, the candid pics the pics that look like post cards. Glad you shared your unblogged photos. They are wonderful. Continue to do you Tamara πŸ™‚

  31. Can I tell you how much I love the picture of your sister and her beau? So adorable. Your blog makes me feel like I don’t have enough family photos. How do you house your photos? Do you have a scrapbook or keep up with a photo album. Inquiring minds want to know. Your life looks pretty darn good to me. We all have lemon moments, but such is life, eh?

    • Mostly all virtually these days. I have photos in three places – online storage, hard drive and Lightroom. I do really need to put them in an album or scrapbook, though!

    • Thank you so much. I guess I’m explaining my day to day thoughts, and it’s nice to know I can get them out in a way people can relate to. I can’t always do that!
      And I have a post tomorrow about action shots!

  32. Beautiful photos Tamara ! The pic of the horse at your parents farm is lovely, wish I could be in such a location. Des and Scarlet look so cute in there costumes. Wow your action shots are so sharp.

    • Thank you! They have a beautiful place. The sunset overlooks the Appalachian Trail. Can’t beat that! And the action shots? I have a post tomorrow that gives tips on how I got them! Stay tuned!

  33. Loooove these photos! I love the shots of Des and Scarlet (as usual) and those horse photos are stunning. So are your sisters! And I’m liking the idea of the data entry money going to a blogging conference πŸ˜€ Or a new bed…or shoes…those are both pretty fun things.

  34. This has to be the best pile of compiled pictures in a post–ever. I love the ones with Cassidy and the kids and even though you are on the other side, somehow I still feel you in the pictures too. πŸ™‚ YAY for making some cash! Whatever you want to do, just make sure that it makes YOU happy!

  35. I can’t seem to do anything without deep thought either, Tamara. I’m still trying to decide if it’s a blessing or a curse. I think it varies from day to day or from thought to thought!

    I can’t wait for the action shot post! And I hate flash photography too. Unfortunately I have no idea how to avoid it in low light settings (or if you can, even!) so I’m forced to resort to it every so often. I just really don’t take many photos at night because of it.

    • The action shots will be a guest post but I’ll link to it from here! And perhaps I need to do a low light tips post too. A very famous photographer mentor once told me that flash is inevitable because otherwise, you’re freaking out about the status of the weather. (I do that anyway, actually). She carried her speedlite with her and I do too. I even carry my umbrella lights setup, and it’s much more beautiful. I’ll have to post an example of it on twitter right now!

  36. While all of these photos are absolutely stunning, as usual, the horse photo really spoke to me because there was a time in my life that I was solely dedicated to horses and horseback riding. I now feel as though I will be thinking about that part of my life for the rest of the day. I am completely okay with this though because those were some of my happiest memories. I certainly miss horseback riding! πŸ™

  37. Beautiful photos as always Tamara. Looks like it was a fun day with your family. Your sisters look a lot like you. Of course the kids always look adorable. And photo of that beautiful white horse is absolutely amazing! I am glad that you got some cash. Spend it on something good while you can. Look forward to the action shot post! Your hubby looks like he was enjoying it!

    • The action shot post will be tomorrow! One of my sisters is related to me by blood, and one by blended family. I’m not going to tell you which is which because it often stumps people!
      My husband was in his element!

  38. Your photos are consistently amazing, and you’ll get around to writing those books some day. Hooray for extra money and trips to the bank! I sometimes feel the possibility of where the extra cash will go is much funner than where it actually ends up going. lol

    • I know! I make lists! I’m insane. I so often don’t have money in my wallet or bank, so when I do, I sort of spin in circles. And then it’s gone again! My goal is to have it coming in consistently.

  39. Oh my gosh-Im moving in with your parents. Beautiful horse and background to match! in fact, you have a beautiful family right down to those gorgeous guys you all have. Woo, woo! lol Congrats on all the money making too. It is hard to beboth a photographer and a writer. You are constantly at war where you want or need to be. But, probably like you, I wouldnt give up either!!

    • Ahh, you’re one of the few I know who is both. And more than that too! My parents say you can move in anytime. They take in people all the time. They should probably open up an Inn.

  40. If you could see the beauty in all you do you wouldn’t worry a bit about symmetry and flash and sneezing too much.

    I’m so jealous of Cassidy.

    The days I could hold one girl in each arm are long, long gone.

    • I think I’m jealous of him too, because they always want me to carry one in each arm, but I can’t quite do it. That and I’m always the one carrying a camera, a diaper bag and a purse. (sometimes a coffee too.)
      Your words make me believe in myself..more than I can muster by myself. Thank you.

    • Ooooh! Have a ton of fun. I won’t be that far from you, for once! I mean, I know they’re not that close, but we’ll both hopefully be in mild temperatures.

  41. You sound totally busy and calm and in control. Despite the words of coulda, woulda. You can’t control sneezes. πŸ™‚ Beautiful photos!

    How in the world does someone jump that high?!?

  42. Oh I’m not too late with my comment before I miss another of your post. Why haven’t you written a book? I would so love to read a book co-authored by you and Des. That would so make my day. Photos are absolutely stunning as usual and we can’t wait to see how the Disney ones will turn out. Take lots of pics but still have more much fun!

  43. OMG, Cassidy is hilarious in all those pictures! You’re so lucky to have a Husband so involved in everything…from reading your blog to being a huge part of your personal photography. I definitely know what you’re talking about with the “always working” feeling. Several weeks ago, I jotted down the phrase “I work on the weekends so I can work during the week”. Not the way you picture your adult life as a kid, is it? Anyway, you’ve clearly got a beautiful family – hopefully that makes all the work worth it!

  44. Cassidy is SUCH a ham, I can tell! I am sorry you had to work all weekend, I know you had recently been sick πŸ™ But it will be great to have for the Disney trip! (so Jealous) I can’t WAIT to see those pics!

    • Thanks, Jodi! Here right now and I already went crazy with the camera at Universal. Tomorrow is SeaWorld and Tuesday is Disney. I will certainly go crazy some more..

  45. Ugh, data entry… I hope the check was good! I think that being a writer yourself made you perfect for that book release photography gig! You understand better than most what is going through the author’s head. I try not to work on the weekends, but then again I only get two good hours with my kids in the evenings M-F so I try to make the weekends family time. Lately I’ve had such a short fuse with my 3 yr old though! I am realizing that as much as I want to spend all my free time with my kids, I need time to myself and time with friends too. I have been sorely neglecting that part of my life.

    • The check was good, Sarah! Although I already spent $30 on a Rapunzel wig..but I can’t call it wig to Scarlet. It’s “Rapunzel’s hair.”
      The short fuse thing – I really get that.

  46. As always – adorable photos! I too, am not a fan of strobes, and actually struggle with it. I was learning a while to properly use artificial lighting, but had to put that on hold after school started..

  47. There’s something about little toddlers in bowties that just drives me nuts! It’s so cute, I can’t stand it! I put Zavier in a bowtie for special occasions or just because… Data entry doesn’t sound so glamourous, just like my job as a project manager is not so glamourous everyday. But as they say, gotta make that paper! LOL At least you continue to pursue your passion on writing and photography here on your blog!

    • Data entry can be mind-numbing. I certainly couldn’t do it full time! The perk is that I set my own timing, and I do it to music and coffee! At home.

  48. Once again my friend, you have opened up so honestly and beautifully with the pictures to match. There are days where we guess what we are doing, the whys and hows, but I think that helps us move forward and realize for the next situation that it is not that bad.

  49. I get those same questions when I look back at things – I should have, maybe I could have, what if I had… All the questions. But it usually just is the way I am. And I have to trust that it will will all work out in the end, this life of mine.
    I love the pictures by the Tardis shed. Awesome.

    • Um..I’m on vactation right now and I’m still “working.” Although I love work and it relaxes me after five hours at Universal Studios. Five hours. And then hearing, “Well this was just a half day! Wait until Disney.”
      Um..what? Ten hours? Won’t I die by then?

  50. These pictures make me smile so much. There is so much love on this page! I have all of those same thoughts in terms of the should haves and the shoulds. I have to shut them down otherwise they can bring me so far down that I just shut off.

  51. Cassidy has such an incredible bounce! He’s like Tigger.

    Sometimes that little voice inside our head is so helpful, so we leave it on all the time and forget about those days when it is just full of negativity. Just remember that you are awesome and ignore any negative thoughts that bubble up from within xx

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