I’m a Little Broken, and That’s Ok

I mean, where would I even begin?

I have a history of an anxious mind. I have Gone Days. I have a Fever. I have PTSD. I have The Curious Case of Crying During Benjamin Button. Take your pick around here. I’m nearly wide open. There are pieces of it scattered throughout this blog.

And it’s rather fun to find it again. Easter eggs.

You can throw in how I sometimes feel so much, that I feel nothing. It’s broken down and bottled up, or broken up and bottled down. Sometimes there’s only a second of difference between the two. I have that nearly invisible inch between feeling nothing and feeling everything. I know what it’s like to have your heart pound and your stomach in your throat at nearly invisible triggers – tied by nearly invisible string – trailing between these nearly invisible miles – for days, weeks, months and years – into oblivion. Always invisibly tied to you – the tether – while sailing off in some distant galaxy or two.

It’s ready to hurl back and trip you at any moment. I get that.

I'm linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week's topic is

I know the way your heart can wrap around a missing person you only ever almost knew. I know what it is to be completely bowled over by love, and to only have it happen the tiniest amount of times. Of so many faces.. in so very many places.

It’s sort of amazing the way it only happens once or twice a lifetime?

I also know the truest feeling of heartbreak – it’s like an endless dark cloud over you – and your life can be going amazingly, which it has a way of doing when you’re less invested in outcomes, but you still feel like you’ll never be happy again.

Don’t worry. You will be.

I thought so long about which of my broken stories to tell you. Which one to choose? Where to begin? Then I realized that I’m sort of just one big broken story, and that’s ok. I’m proud of my breaks – I wear them proudly with their sloppy bandages and flimsy casts. All the while, the bone and the flesh has a way of forming and stitching itself back up again. When did I feel most broken? I couldn’t pick one time, but sometimes those inner demons make it harder to fight the ones out in the world, and the ones out in the world distract you from fighting the inner ones at the core. They arrive. You rise to meet them.

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To let yourself be broken is the key to putting yourself back together again. You don’t even have to go it alone. All the King’s horses and all the King’s men are gonna try to put you back together again. You just have to find what works.

Being broken means you’re alive

Being broken means you’re growing

Being broken is going to fuel you

Being broken means you’ll understand yourself and the world better

Being broken means you’re going to put yourself back together

Being broken means you’ll meet a new version of yourself

I’m linking up with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week’s topic is “I felt the most broken when..” You can link up HERE.

When did you feel it the most?

5 Things I Wish I Had Known About Parenting

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I always knew I wanted to be a mom.

It was never a question, even when I was ridiculously young and couldn’t even begin to conceive of this insane idea of parenting another human. While I couldn’t begin to flesh out the details, even in my mind, there were so many things I “knew”, or thought I did. I remember starting stories with, “One day when I have kids, we’ll..” Or, “I can’t wait to take my kids here one day.” I had it all figured out in my head, or so I thought, but really I knew next to nothing. Except one thing.

I always knew I wanted to be a mom.

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That said, I’m one of five kids, and I remember all of our scattered ages, stages, and phases better than I should! I have incredible long-term memory. I remember when the youngest of us were in diapers. My mom used Luvs Diapers. The packaging has changed, but one thing that hasn’t changed for me is seeing Luvs diapers in my home! My parents always used them for the five of us, and my mom kept the boxes for decades to store baby clothes. She probably still has those boxes!

I remember what the boxes looked like. And now it’s more like this:

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Some things change, and others stay the same. I’m seven years into parenting, but the learning curve is steep and powerful. I love talking to my sisters about having babies, and I love knowing that the door hasn’t closed on that part of my life.

5 Things I Wish I Had Known About Parenting:

1 – Kids develop at their own paces. I learned to walk when I was 18 months! Some kids learn at 8! I learned to read at age four. Some kids learn at six or seven. Try to enjoy each milestone, without always thinking about the next one to come.

2 – Have a good sense of humor and embrace the messy chaos, and chaotic messes!

3 – When your baby grows up and you’re at a parent/teacher conference you might glaze over the academic talk just to get to the good stuff: “Is she happy? Is she KIND? Do other kids like her?”

4 – You will parent better if you take the time to do something you love. Regularly. It’s good for you and it’s good for the kids to see you achieving your own happiness. Take breaks. Take breaths. Take it easy on yourself. You’ll need it.

5 – You will go through a LOT of diapers. And diapering is an art form too! Luvs is the official diaper of experienced parents, and they are offering big savings this month! From now until May 27th, you can find this $2 print-at-home coupon from coupons.com. Then it will change to $1 off until 6/10. There will also be a high-value coupon in your Sunday paper – this Sunday, the 28th – for $2 off any one pack or box of Luvs diapers. Don’t miss these big savings!

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No doubt about it, I wish I had known that we’d need a lot of diapers, and that parenting is expensive! Luckily, Luvs is offering great money-saving opportunities. Luvs introduced their new and improved Luvs Ultra Leakguard Diapers with NightLock Plus™, which are softer and more absorbent than before*. They have large stretch tabs for easy fastening, ultra-leakage protection, and a money-back guarantee. Parenthood is a roller coaster ride, and Luvs provide features that both babies and parents need, but for less cost than premium brands. Experienced parents value the things that help them get through long days and make their lives easier. And what’s better than that?

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