Everyone always knows what I love because I have this strange, ambitious way of making that known. Des is like that too. I have total middle-child syndrome. Or maybe it’s just that I’m passionate and I feel like I owe credit where it’s due. I love moose and chocolate and cookies and ice cream. Rainbow socks, flannel pajamas pants, tribal printed leggings, and tribal printed sundresses that fit and hold me just right. I love baby animals and spring; picnics and lattes. I love being in love, in as many ways as there are people I love. Especially with my husband and my kids, as different as they are from each other.
Isn’t it strange the way we ache continuously for each other? The way we ache for those that grow stronger and straighter – and in a direction opposite of us. Then there are the ones we ache for who grow toward us instead – stooped and aged.
On the second Friday of every month, Finish the Sentence Friday goes into listicle mode. I LOVE listicles. Who doesn’t love a good top ten list? This week’s topic is “10 things that are better than anything except being in love.” And I thought, how easy it would be to write ten things I love nearly as much as being in love. I just did it above without a second thought. Those words came faster than my hands could type. I thought more about channeling a feeling. A glorious feeling. Many.
It’s a feeling maybe like this one. It’s 5:00am and the phone rings in the dark house. The radiators are creaking with heat and you pull your covers closer. You hear the light footsteps from the third floor getting closer down the stairs and up and down the winding hallways to tell all five of you the news – you last – with your room buried in the back of a house. Deep and cavernous. Radiating with thoughts and heat. Your mom comes to your doorway last, knocks softly, and tells you that school is canceled. She opens your blinds and even though the dawn’s light hasn’t even touched on the softly falling snow, it’s like you can see it. You can hear it. You close your eyes and stay in your warm bed indefinitely. Now that’s a feeling.
1 – An open road with a new mix cd (or 4). Or since CDs are getting dated, you can work with me here with music mixes!
2 – A tiny baby in arms and the knowledge that I have at least 18 years (maybe up to 70) of this painful, aching bliss.
3 – The knowledge I could do it all over again if I choose to.. for now, anyway.
4 – Getting back your bed after months of it being in storage or off-limits, due to renovations or moving or whatever else makes your bed go away. Or lying in your new bed for the first time! Knowing it’s all yours and feels like grown up magic.
5 – Having money in your bank account, and knowing that you can go anywhere you want in the world.
6 – What used to be a freshly loaded roll of film, but is now your favorite camera – or the one you most know how to use – and your favorite lens. Then that moment or moments when your “vision” is on fire – and the hairs on the back of your neck stand up. It’s the moment before you hit click, during that click, and when you know that the click captured your vision.
7 – The prospect of a romantic walk with someone you newly adore, which is sometimes as good or better than the actual walk. Similarly, it’s a hotel room and time with someone special. Room service breakfast in a cushy bed. Slow rolling time.
8 – When there’s no anxiety because you’re doing what you should darn well be doing.
9 – Time to yourself to read a book or magazine in a bath or near a fireplace.
10 – Being a Super Aunt! And of course, raising Super Cousins.
This is me linking up, as one of my favorite things to do, with Finish The Sentence Friday. This week’s topic is “10 things that are better than anything except being in love.” And there’s still time to write yours. Come link up with your spin: HERE.