You and Me, Babe, How About It?

10 year wedding anniversary

For so long, I was stunned to find myself in the middle of a miracle. A real life miracle.

The first time we were together was good, I will admit, if you like fairy tale fantasies and a complete and willing loss on the grip of reality, but the second time we found each other? That one ached. It was visceral. The first, to quote the great Karen Klein, was like pouring hot lava into two dixie cups – we weren’t yet strong enough to withstand the power and heat. When we were together the second time, two years later, she said it was like pouring hot lava into two strong clay cups. That first time with Dixie cups. It poured fast and ready. The cups crumpled and crushed under hot heat. It wasn’t sustainable. Yet.

10 year wedding anniversary

The second time was that true miracle I keep referencing. How do you explain a magical whirlwind cross country romance with a hot older man, only to break your own heart and have your heart truly broken (truly, I’ve been with a lot of guys – this was my one crushed heart, other than my father), only to find him again after two years? No, he found me. I wasn’t quite ready to be found, because the unexpected phone call years after I laid all my love on the table, only to get rebuffed, sent tears spiraling down my face in a haphazard fashion. Everything was on fire then and I couldn’t rest and I couldn’t drive without loud music and body thrashing. I couldn’t sit still, but I didn’t want to sit still. It was a fevered pitch. I had a fever.

I still do.

10 year wedding anniversary

This wasn’t finding an old love. It wasn’t part two. This was a new love with an old flame. We stepped together – hot lava into clay cups and pots. I’ll never forget that miracle. I lived it for so long. It took even heartbreakingly longer to discover that the real miracle has always still been there – beneath the surface. Hot lava into metal pots – working our way to steel.

10 year wedding anniversary

How I’ve hurt you – with words and actions.
How you’ve hurt me – with more of the same.

I worry you don’t get me. I don’t get you. When we align, though, it’s harmonious. You love all of me. The goofy, neurotic, weather-complaining, moose-obsessive, sometimes-sleepless, anxiety-ridden, heart-opening, me. And I love all of you.

10 year wedding anniversary

Holy cow (moose). Ten years. So much I thought we weren’t doing by loving freely and openly, and leaping together, and holding each other. Years of misunderstandings gone cold. Frozen. But underneath! We must have been doing something right all along – planting seeds, setting roots, letting them grow at their pace, growing ever closer together. Through pain and uphill climbs. We built something. We built this. These unfolding dreams and stars in our eyes. Our family and home.

We did it, simply, by loving each other right.

10 year wedding anniversary

And the love I feel grows stronger, and I think yours does too. Simply. Loving each other. What else can we build? Let’s start today. Perfectly imperfect and imperfectly perfect for me. Perfect. For me. Like no other has or could. God, do I love you.

10 year wedding anniversary

Written on the eve of my 10 year wedding anniversary.

Hulk Smash Cupcakes

If your little one is a fan of MARVEL superheroes like mine both are, then they are going to love these Hulk Smash Cupcakes. They are made to look like Hulk's fist and they are delicious too! #recipes #superheroes

It’s beginning to look a lot like Avengers, everywhere you go.

I think you all know that we’re big Avengers fans here. We’re big Marvel fans. I gasped when I saw Stan Lee go by me in his wheelchair last summer. I couldn’t think of a single thing to say! We see ALL of their movies in the theater, and I was so happy last year when Thor: Ragnarok came out and it was the first time we saw a Marvel movie as a family of four. In the past, we had gotten a sitter for both kids, or for the last couple of years, a sitter for Des. He loved the movie! It has some darkness and it’s long and the only way we could get his morale up was to tell him that Hulk was going to be in the movie.

hulk smash cupcakes

He is a fan and I am a fan! These Hulk Smash Cupcakes would be perfect for any superhero party or movie night. We are SO excited to see Avengers: Infinity War and we have our tickets for Friday. It’s actually a big week for us, and I’ll be talking on my blog tomorrow (tonight at midnight, actually) about one of the most important topics in my entire life, if not THE most important one. So I hope you’ll tune in! It’s a personal one. Anyway, it’s time for the cupcakes. Don’t they look smashing?

(See what I did there?)

Ingredients:

1 box of white cake mix, any brand
1 1/4 C. water
1/2 C. vegetable oil
4 egg whites
Cupcake liners
Green gel food coloring
Purple gel food coloring
White frosting, any brand
12 oz package of Wilton green candy melts
Wilton 1M star frosting tip
Disposable piping bag
Avengers silicone mold (I suggest purchasing 2 in order to cut down on the candy making time)
12 count muffin tin

Instructions:

1 – Preheat the oven to 350 degrees and place the cupcake liners into the muffin wells

2 – Combine the cake mix, water, vegetable oil and egg whites, and mix well

3 – Add in the several drops of the green gel food coloring and stir to combine

4 – Fill each cupcake well about 2/3 full and bake for 18-20 minutes

5 – Insert a toothpick into the cupcakes around 18 minutes. If it comes out clean, then the cupcakes are done!

6 – Remove the cupcakes from the oven and let cool

7 – Pour the Wilton green candy melts into a microwave safe dish

8 – Heat in 30 second increments, stirring occasionally until melted

9 – Carefully spoon the melted chocolate into the Hulk fist section of the mold

10 – Place in the fridge to set about 20 minutes

11 – Remove from the fridge and gently pop the fists out of the silicone mold. Repeat this process until you have 16 fists total

12 – Add a few drops of purple food coloring to the white frosting and stir to combine

13 – Attach the star frosting tip to the disposable piping bag and fill with purple frosting

14 – Gently squeeze the frosting from the bag and onto the top of the cupcake in a circular motion

15 – Place a Hulk fist on top and repeat with all cupcakes

*Makes approximately 16 cupcakes

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Marvel Avengers Silicone Mold

Wilton Green Candy Melts

Wilton Star Frosting Tip

Disposable Piping Bags

Gel Food Coloring

White Cupcake Liners

Cupcake Tin

If your little one is a fan of MARVEL superheroes like mine both are, then they are going to love these Hulk Smash Cupcakes. They are made to look like Hulk's fist and they are delicious too! #recipes #superheroes

If your little one is a fan of MARVEL superheroes like mine both are, then they are going to love these Hulk Smash Cupcakes. They are made to look like Hulk's fist and they are delicious too! #recipes #superheroes

Who is your favorite Avenger?

If your little one is a fan of MARVEL superheroes like mine both are, then they are going to love these Hulk Smash Cupcakes. They are made to look like Hulk's fist and they are delicious too! #recipes #superheroes